to remedy a constant craving for madness: indulge without question.

from early september 2008

cool morning. dim light. the air is crisp. green leaves brush my face. the weather hints that they are longing for change with the season and so am i. i hope it returns soon, but for the day fall has sneaken into this city.

it's smell mixes with the smoke in my car and stirs up memories and a feeling i miss.

i havn't felt like myself in awhile.

my impatient sense of adventure is almost choking me.

i realize i'm driving faster.

one week from today, legality will finally release me from the burdens of the past few months, i hope.

stop sign. i close my eyes. i breathe in deeply the smell of fall, car smoke, and freedom. i watch the sparks play on the pavement after i toss my cigarette from the window.

i pull away. i contemplate life. i'm glad to be alive.

thank god i'm thinking irrationally again.